03 June, 2016

Updating: A Life Worth Living?

Here I sit, upon my couch, resting in its corner, thinking so loud. Lost in my madness, head filled with clouds.

The game is over, I can relax no longer. The Lord's of Bureaucracy have had their final say. I suppose it's alright though I never wanted to be their slut anyway.

So now here I am, lost and confused, my income is gone entirely too soon. Nothing will be the same, as thoughts of death dance too and fro, this is my life now, I figured you should know.

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As of today, I am considered no longer disabled. The world of money is a terrible fright. I will receive three more checks, and that will be it. Unless I can create a digital presence that can replace my previous income, I will have to return to the workforce.

I finally found security, somewhat happiness, and they shit all over me. Now, I'm stuck, spiraling fast back to square one. My stomach is in knots, my mind is going to shit.

Trying to hold it together. I am going to keep writing. Every day. I am going to film, I am going to stream. I can't let them win and send me to my death. I can't. I want to... but I can't.

I love you all very much, and as always, I will see you all on the other side.

--RE